Need

Within this anger, I know where to go,

I am hurting and I know that I should go,

I know that I will go,

But I do not want to go,

Because I need it to be him.

I know that that he knows of my anger and my hurt.

I know that he understand that I have lost myself

But it is his voice I want to hear 

It is his hand I want to feel against my bottom

Because I need it to be him.

I want to cry in his arms when my bottom is swollen and red

I want to curl my body into his, my safe universe.

I want to listen to his calm voice, as I am holding onto him.

I want him to find me again, clear my anger and my hurt,

As only I know he can do.

But within this anger, I know where to go,

I am hurting and I know that I should go,

And I know that I will go.