I remembered

As I was waking up this morning,

I felt the rain on my face, and oh, how it rained on that day

I saw your face, quiet, a small smile, as if only asleep

I heard a sound so wretched, my soul torn apart,

Because I remembered, you were no longer here.

As I was waking up this morning,

I felt the heat of the candles on my face, one each for every year of your age.

I saw the flowers, brilliant in their colours; roses, lilies and orchids too,

I heard soft voices murmuring, gentle touches to my arm, faces blurring

Because I remembered, you were no longer here.

As I was waking up this morning,

I felt the hard wood underneath my hand, smooth and cold under my final touch

I saw my sorrow echoed in faces, staring at me, the numbness of it all

I heard the scrape of shovels, the clumps of soil thudding away, sounds of a heart breaking

Because I remember, you were no longer here

As I was waking up this morning,

I felt the hollowness inside, the searing cold of knowing, my helplessness in it all

I saw your face, so young, now forever frozen in time, never to change

I heard the steady drip of rain, tears from heaven

Because I remembered, you were no longer here.

As I was waking up this morning

I felt the gift of love that you brought with you, my joy in my love for you

I saw you, your face excited, animated, and so beautiful in your trust in me

I heard your voice, babbling away, your laughter hanging in the air

And I smiled, because I remembered, in my heart, every day, you always will be